Thursday, April 16, 2009

Cynical Much?

So over the last 3 years I have developed into one of the most negative/cynical people that I know... And I know some pretty negative people...

I have been talking about the Joy of the Lord a bit with some friends, and I catch myself more and more just focusing on the "bad" aspects of things...

I often justify it saying that I am not being naive, and I am being critical in order to improve things around me... but when it comes down to it I just like to bitch and moan because of assorted reasons... My own insecurities? My own failings? So that I can have an excuse to not perform well in areas of my life?

So what is the balance? How do I live life so that I am not the oblivious/naive individual, yet I'm not the cynical jerk that I have become? What role does the "Joy of the Lord" play in my life? How can I be so critical of everything when I have the knowledge and truth of Christ's work in my life? What steps do I take to get past this crap stage?

I don't get it, and I'm not there... I have been making an effort to focus my daily readings on the joyful aspects of scripture lately... But I'm still definitely struggling

And that's all I have to say about that...

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